Day 1

02/16/2022

This is where it all began… I fear I may have gotten myself in over my head before I even began. My goals of leaving my mark on the internet has been a long… drawn-out calamity of indecisiveness and anxiety. Even now, writing this very first entry, portions of my mind scream to cease… to give it some more thought and come back later. Sadly, I’m afraid my options to delay have become exhausted. Should I choose vacate my advances now, I will never permit myself the opportunity to do so.

I’ve considered multiple avenues to start my misadventures… many got to the point of actually making a finished product. None got a point where I felt truly proud of my work. Even now, the work I’ve made prior to this entry certainly has improvements and ideas I haven’t put into effect.

When I started working toward this step, most of my attempts were mere imitation, seeing what came before and making my version of it. Circumstances and revelations have occurred time and time again that changed the direction I took… Now, I’m trying something a little different… something I’ve not seen others do. Something I feel makes sense for the strange set of skills I have chosen for myself.

Will it all pan out and end up being okay? No, but I will make full effort to minimize the hardships. I want this to succeed.